Monday, October 29, 2007
Last friday had no chance to tell her....felt eager so ended up telling her through email....feels kinda crappy to think of it...haiz....shld have waited longer then tell her straight in her face...nw 3 days as we stood still neither of us talking to each other she's more like nt replying me.....I tried smsing, and chatting wif her online....maybe she's really busy online I can forgive tat but the smses? perhaps...perhaps...haiz.....nw i'm hanging in mid air unsure of wad to do at all...I wanna tell her face to face but nw alrdy school holidays where to get chance?she doesn't reply my smses....crap...shall ask noorul for advice...
I-screamed-at-the-AUTHORITIES at 3:34 am
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Tmr is finally the last day of school before the 2 months of school holidays start!!!yes!!!but still my mood is on the half half side cause....I'm thinking whether to tell her tmr or shld I wait for a longer period of time...cause I dun think after tmr we'll be seeing each other much till nxt yr....I'll really miss her....I wanna tell her and confess to her abt my feelings to her....I wanna let her know....the dudes all say no fear just go for it!!! I said ok...but then liyana told me might wanna wait cause she might take it she might nt....if she doesn't take it...the both of us might nt talk as comfortably like we do nw.....so nw my mins is confused...I'm still thinking...I hope my mind is set by tmr....
I-screamed-at-the-AUTHORITIES at 7:05 am
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
I just can't stop thinking of her, EVERY SINGLE DAY before my sleep she just appears in my mind...the pain inside me of thinking of her and loving her so badly but yet nth can be done because she's nt going to school and she's ignoring my msg, my chat on msn...is she really that busy?I just can't get my mind to think abt it....I believe my instinct, I really do love her, and I always will no matter wad...I have alrdy thought abt it a long time ago before I even tried wooing her...I know wad I'm doing...I believe I can cope with my studies and cca even if I had a love life...I know I can...Please Denise, I love you, stop ignoring me, stop it, my heart is breaking as we are pulled apart frm ur absence in school...come back, talk to me, we can last forever...
I-screamed-at-the-AUTHORITIES at 2:52 am
Friday, October 19, 2007
Today is a boring saturday!!! Besides chatting wif friends(so far no one replying yet...), playing gunz, checking mail etc there's nth better to do!!!AHHH!!!boring boring!!!! I wanna go out...I want to get the electric guitar!!!!just have to bare for directly 2 weeks more....must faster come then I can rock out loud!!!! I feel like smth is missing in my heart...actually 2 things...2 ppl...one my maid the other is........her...without her by my side I feel so empty...dunno wad to do...she missed two days of school....asked her to go nxt wk....lucky my 'persuasion' worked....hahas finally can see her again...
I-screamed-at-the-AUTHORITIES at 11:26 pm
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Shall write for secret blog only for today....cause my normal blog nt much to write abt....anyway today had that sexuality workshop....urgh it was kinda boring almost fell asleep...first topic we did quite interesting though....its called Friends First, Friends Forever? But wad we did didn't really suit the topic...did some fun games friends answered some qns relating relationship blah blah blah...but today she didn't go to school again....knew it...she told me she might nt cause nth to do....yea true enough there was nth to do but can go school keep the peeps acompany wad...and me too...it feels so boring without her in school...until nw just 2 days and I'm alrdy missing her....jaslyn jie says its normal cause u really feel in love!wow...
I-screamed-at-the-AUTHORITIES at 1:46 am
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Today finally got back all my results!!! Ms Rabia told me I'll confirm get promoted cause alrdy gt 3 subs including eng alrdy!!!YES I can finally relax to the max and play to the max and pretty sure can get electric guitar!!! Just have to wait for 2 weeks 3 days! Then I'll be rockin the whole hse with my new electric guitar!!! At the same time celebrate my b'day but nt real day(real day is the day after) I can't wait!!!AHHH!!!anyway she finally talk to me on msn again....I wonder if she suspects that I love her alrdy...then she saw my msn nick...then nw start talking to me again....liyana if its like tat maybe she likes me....whoosh I really wish tats true...
I-screamed-at-the-AUTHORITIES at 2:56 am
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Today finally returned to school....everything is quite the same except the fact that exams are over nw we all feel much more relaxed...saw her too...finally bringing my mind to peace seeing her pleasant self. Whenever I see her I'll feel happy too but painful at the same time cause having the 'so near yet so far' feeling so I've decided to push myself to get her in my arms...Liyana helpin me too. After school had class party...it wasn't bad...actually it was gd but quite alot of ppl nvr come...sad sad...She nvr go so couldn't take a pic of her...but anyway I'm sure everyone will be in school on the 26th to get back their report book and so I believe mdm low has planned tat day to be the day to take class photo so that's my other chance to take a photo of her...
I-screamed-at-the-AUTHORITIES at 2:11 am
Friday, October 12, 2007
Hey nvr thought i'll actually be back to write post again...lols but i'm back...this blog as I call it nw is the secret blog...well exams are finally over!Today nvr go school due to marking day...yesterday celebrated well with mr poon and the archery seniors...went to have a delightful lunch and 3 great games of bowling! My feelings for her is there and it will be there forever...for her...nw tat exams are over, besides going back my original stuff like jamming and archery etc. , I'll do my best to win her heart to let her know I care for her and want to be her boyfriend...
I-screamed-at-the-AUTHORITIES at 1:28 am
